Life lately

I MUST be better about blogging!!So much has been going on - some good, some not so good. But I have to say it's more good than bad - yay. First the bad: I found out two weeks ago I have TMJ. I have been having pain since May - thought it was my ear because that is where the pain radiates from. So, I went to an ENT and he broke the news to me. I went to an oral surgeon yesterday. Good news is he didnt see anything that would require surgery or orthodonitcs! It seems the muscle on the left side that holds the TMjoint in place is stretched. He said I must have done something to cause this ?! It is swollen and inflammed. So I have a steroid pack - great. But at least I lost 4 lbs last week! I have to take Alleve around the clock and stick to a strictly soft food diet for 2 weeks. No foods that require opening the mouth too wide, nothing crunchy or chewy or requires a tearing action. I go back in two weeks and he will see how I'm doing and decide if I need a night guard. He said it didnt appear I was a really bad teeth grinder maybe a clencher.
So, I went to the grocery store last night and got soup, yogury, cottage cheese and ice cream. Fine with me lol.
Good news: The Crue concert was in Atlanta Saturday. I had such a GREAT time. OMG lots of fun and it wasn't humid and hot like I expected it to be. Just a good night with friends old and new and NO drama. Gotta love that! I met a guy named Shane. He seemed to be very into me. We traded numbers and we will see if I hear from him now that he is sober lol. Either way, the attention was wonderful. He kept coming up to me and putting his arms around me and we sat on the lawn and talked for a while. Attention is good for the self esteem and mood.
Speaking of mood - I have felt really good for the last week or so! My mind has been clearer than it has in months. Depression truly takes its toll on the body and mind. People who have never suffered from it have no idea. It's not just about being sad. The problems I have are loneliness, lack of motivation, not being able to sleep, not being able to stay awake, body aches, not wanting to be around people, trouble concentrating, not being able to find the simple words you need to say and on and on. I am not happy about all the meds I'm taking now, but it is what I need to get me on my way to being well. I have become the master of the self-help section of the library. I have already read 4 books on adult children of alcoholics, co-dependency and love addictions. I have learned some things about myself I never knew. My therapy is going very well. I had no idea how much my dad's alcoholism had affected me. I don't blame him for anything because I understand alcoholism is a disease. It's the disease that's the one to blame. I'm still very proud of him for getting sober in 1991.
Well, I guess that's a good update. Till next time